Hesitant on posting or writng about this, but…
Guest Post:—one of my most “god spots” was also probably my most heartbreaking and what pushed me away from church, do to what happened afterwards–don’t know how much detail to go into–i took an OD of pills–some of purposeful, other spiritual (long story)–but i stopped breathing–the time there though was my “god spot”
–reading my whole medical report i was very talkative (i don’t remember a thing much-at least the talking)–they found no drugs in my system-I wondered why they did not pump my stomach when I got to the hospital–and that explains it-i took over 120 pills and knew exactly what they were–several hours later–still nothing—but i stopped breathing–and was life flighted to a trauma hospital
–I don’t remember much at all about that night but, the vivid thing i do remember was being visited by something/someone–i thought someone but was told over and over NO ONE was there–i was seeing “visions” of little demons in front of me and smacking them–this “person” kept trying to come in my room, but wouldn’t come near me–called my name over and over, wendy, wendy–this person raised his hands and said “Evil Be Gone” and i remember throwing up
–this person (who i asked the nurse plz let that person talk to me–she said no one is in here–i said what about that person by the doorway–no one was there she said)–this “person” now came back into the room every time after the nurse left and proceeded to try and give me a letter, and a package (i know sounds odd)-they did not want to come near me per se so they tried handing it to me with a stick–the letter was so vivid–and a package which i remember in detail–I kept thinking why the hell doesn’t this person just hand this too me–and again I asked the nurse–can you get that letter and package–she AGAIN told me NO ONE was there
–i knew my answers were in those 2 things–the peace, truth, answer to my darkness struggles-(and still believe that)-but i could never get it—i remember trying to grab for it-and it was right in front of me, but I couldn‘t get it-then this “person” was telling me scriptures to read (now i haven’t read a bible in ages before that, let alone touched one)–but i had one and i remember flipping through the book of psalms, trying to find whatever they were telling me to pray, read—and the one thing I remember i read was “As you walk through the valley of the shadow of death i will fear no evil.”
—at that moment i was gone and woke up a day later in another hospital–and the only thing i remember is that vision–those words, that letter, and package.–was it a dream, could be—but I don’t believe that—was brought back at that point for a reason—–and that visit meant something–still believe that letter had something in it, as well as that package.
I called my church that night–and needed support from them afterwards–but got nothing–I couldn’t even get them to help come pick me up from the hospital–among so many other things.
“I am an island. I am a rock.“~priest
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