It is impossible to doubt the goodness of the person in Mother Teresa. But I feel a great sadness for the dark side of her Spiritual being with God.
According to Wikipedia…
Mother Teresa (26 August 1910 – 5 September 1997), born Agnesë Gonxhe Bojaxhiu(pronounced [aɡˈnɛs ˈɡɔndʒe bɔjaˈdʒiu]), was an Albanian Catholic nun with Indian citizenship who founded the Missionaries of Charity in Kolkata (Calcutta), India in 1950.
For over 45 years she ministered to the poor, sick, orphaned, and dying, while guiding the Missionaries of Charity’s expansion, first throughout India and then in other countries. Following her death she was beatified by Pope John Paul II and given the title Blessed Teresa of Calcutta.
Mother Teresa expressed grave doubts about God’s existence and pain over her lack of faith:
“Where is my faith? Even deep down … there is nothing but emptiness and darkness … If there be God—please forgive me. When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven, there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives and hurt my very soul … How painful is this unknown pain—I have no Faith. Repulsed, empty, no faith, no love, no zeal, … What do I labor for? If there be no God, there can be no soul. If there be no soul then, Jesus, You also are not true.”~Mother Teresa
It is a frightening thought, after spending your life living in poverty, you would question the very existence of God. Something is very wrong with the picture we have of Mother Teresa and the pain from deep within her soul.
“Even deep down … there is nothing but emptiness and darkness…”~Mother Teresa