Depression is characterized as a downward spiral, possibly leading to diminished capacity in all areas of life. For me depression sneaks in like a thief in the night. I am good to go most of the time, energetic and full of life, then for some reason my mind begins processing things from a negative perspective. I don’t know why. I just know it does. It seems to me, negative thoughts are symptomatic of the depressive process and spotting this and other signs of the spiral ‘early on’ is key.
Combating the spiral and impending darkness is tough. I purposely avoid negative people as our negativity can feed on each other. I look for the positive in people and circumstances. I reject the negative and ask for supernatural Godly intervention to kill off the darkness with His light. Key is identifying the spiral early on and calling on Jesus to straighten my path and mind before the spiral takes on a life of its own, forever sucking me further down into a cesspool of negative thought and action.
It seems to me David of Israel experienced similar cycles as i. One moment proclaiming the majesty of God the Father and the next crying out for God‘s intervention. Many times we see David acknowledging the fact that if God does not intervene, catastrophic collapse was inevitable. You can almost feel David’s spiral downward. I’d like to think that even in the darkest of times and strongest of spirals, God is waiting to be part of the outcome. His love is real and incredibly tangible when compared to the darkness.
It may be this is the purpose of a depressive spiral… to appreciate the tangible presence of a Holy God you might miss if it had not been for the whirlwind of a deadly spiral. Thank you Jesus for abiding even in the darkness.