Depression is characterized as a downward spiral, possibly leading to diminished capacity in all areas of life. For me depression sneaks in like a thief in the night. I am good to go most of the time, energetic and full of life, then for some reason my mind begins processing things from a negative perspective. I don’t know why. I just know it does. It seems to me, negative thoughts are symptomatic of the depressive process and spotting this and other signs of the spiral ‘early on’ is key.
Combating the spiral and impending darkness is tough. I purposely avoid negative people as our negativity can feed on each other. I look for the positive in people and circumstances. I reject the negative and ask for supernatural Godly intervention to kill off the darkness with His light. Key is identifying the spiral early on and calling on Jesus to straighten my path and mind before the spiral takes on a life of its own, forever sucking me further down into a cesspool of negative thought and action.
It seems to me David of Israel experienced similar cycles as i. One moment proclaiming the majesty of God the Father and the next crying out for God‘s intervention. Many times we see David acknowledging the fact that if God does not intervene, catastrophic collapse was inevitable. You can almost feel David’s spiral downward. I’d like to think that even in the darkest of times and strongest of spirals, God is waiting to be part of the outcome. His love is real and incredibly tangible when compared to the darkness.
It may be this is the purpose of a depressive spiral… to appreciate the tangible presence of a Holy God you might miss if it had not been for the whirlwind of a deadly spiral. Thank you Jesus for abiding even in the darkness.
I don’t know if I have ever taken any bit of new information for granted. In my early married days, my bride was often frustrated with my incessant questioning of everything she had to say. It was not that I didn’t believe her. It was just that I needed the thought validated. If she could share the source, I could add or subtract the likelihood of truth or to what degree of accuracy was likely. As life has gone on, I have tried to mellow out and not appear so offensive in my questioning of my bride. I find value in all she has to say, these days.
Oddly in contrast to life’s questions, there was a time in my early Christian walk, I tended to believe anything another Christian told me about Christ, the Bible and all its characters. I questioned little, trusted implicitly and worked hard to be the model Christian others believed me to be. It was this early belief system that shaped me and kept me well grounded to survive in a world that continues to be ever increasing difficult to thrive in. I especially have my mother and father to thank for this wonderful Christian upbringing.
Today, I have known Christ as my Savior for over 50 years and experienced the bitter sweet of living a Christian life. Most of my life, I spent trying to stay on the mountain top with Christ. I dreaded the valleys, but seemed to spend more time there then I dared to admit. It was this impossible mountain climb that kept me frustrated with my Christianity and kept me asking the single most important question of my life… “Is that all there is?”
I wish when a body realizes the love of Christ on his life and chooses to not reject Christ, there would be infinite wisdom imparted. It would seem so much more of life could be experienced so much quicker, but somehow in God’s wisdom it doesn’t work that way. We grow slowly toward the target of living in Christ daily… fully in the knowledge of His presence. Christ is so patient with us during this journey. His love never fails.
In the last few years, Christ has honored me with a response that continues to ring loudly in my ears and experienced in my life. “I have only just begun!“~Jesus
After 50 years or so, Christ daily reinforces the truth that He has only just begun to build me into the man He desires to spend eternity with and there is so much more.
There once was a man named Nich who was ruler over a nation and was a highly educated man. He marveled at the miraculous prospect of climbing back inside of his mother’s womb, to be born a second time and thus achieving eternal life. You and i think his belief system pretty ridiculous. Why is that?
Could it be… our lack of belief in the ridiculous prevents our ability to believe in the reality of the miraculous. We look at Nich and think how ridiculous he was to consider climbing back into his mother’s womb, but was he really that ridiculous or could it be his belief in the miraculous of Jesus was so strong that nothing seemed impossible to him if Jesus chose.
Jesus had a profoundly ridiculous story to tell. He had little time to tell it. In just a few months, He was tasked by the Father to convince the world He was their Savior. It was a story filled with love and miracles. It was His story written by the Father and concluded on the cross. It was a ridiculous story. The story was written for you.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”~Jesus